I can clearly see in the last couple of weeks that Evangeline is feeling more at home, safer, freer to blossom. She is doing so many cute and sweet things now, where as a month ago, there was very, very little of that. She is doing fewer orphan behaviors, though certainly that isn't all gone. A social worker told me last week that when it comes to international adoption, as the child goes, so goes the mother. And it's true in my case... I am feeling such relief and more settled in, too. I'm not relaxed, exactly, or even well-rested, but I am not a basket case. Currently. So, Evangeline and I apparently are on parallel trajectories.
We had our first visit to the International Adoption Clinic last week. Most people go to the clinic after being home only a few days, but it took me a long time to make the appointment. Maybe it was an advantage to go after 8 weeks home. The questions that the social worker and pediatrician asked gave me a lot of insight into how Evangeline is doing. As I answered "no" to question after question, I realized how she could be doing a lot of really bad, really hard things, but she just isn't. Or she ad been doing them and has now stopped.
|Dr. Chambers at the International Adoption Clinic. Gigi did fine with most of it, but didn't love the ear exam.|
|Gigi and Dr. Chambers made up. Friends again.|
I must be very weak for God to have mercy on us like this... He knew I was at my breaking point. A stronger woman could have handled it longer or better. I'm just grateful for turning a corner. I know things will change again, for the worse even, but for now I am celebrating our reality right now.
Oh and a few people have asked... Evangeline isn't doing her death-defying stunts too much any more. She now can perceive depth properly and doesn't try to walk on thin air. Or water. She still would like to dig through trash or climb stuff, but it's not at the manic pace, with the same kind of panicked driveness that she had when we first got home. Also, I've gotten faster and smarter, probably. (Dave and I reference the Survivor tag line "Outwit Outplay Outlast" all the time when it comes to her. It's our own fun and maybe sick game of trying to survive the craziness. I feel like that deserves it's own post. I'll think on that.)